What it means to me…

Larry Elder stunned libertarians a few years ago. After being one of the most prominent libertarians in the United States, he announced he was changing parties and registering as a Republican. His logic was that the Libertarian party was going nowhere and had no real ambition.

Why am I bringing this up? Because he said something in his column about it that really reached me. He said “Sometimes you have to join the team you’re on.”

When Terri Schiavo’s feeding tube was removed, I started praying. It just seemed the natural thing to do. I prayed harder than I’ve prayed in recent memory. I continued to pray. I prayed for her family, her soul, and everything else. I prayed that someone in Florida would use their head as something other than a hat rack and stop the barbaric starving of that woman.

When Terri died, a piece of me died with her. I cried. Then I prayed.

Then a few days later, the Pope died. A man who represented a faith I felt totally disconnected from except for my belief in God was dead, and I was weeping as if it meant something to me. Little did I realize, it did. I hadn’t been into a church for anything other than two weddings in twelve years and for all my belief in God and Jesus Christ, I had not been going to mass at all. I repeatedly joked that if I walked into a church, it would cave in on my head.

The day after the Pope died, I was in church, and I’ve been going ever since. I’ve been to Saint Patrick’s Cathedral a few times in the past couple of weeks. Why? Because for all the times I had been there, I had never been there as a Catholic, just as a tourist.

I could go on and on, but I think it’s starting to take shape for you now.

I’ve reconnected with my faith in a new and profound way. In some ways, I’m born again. I have a prayer schedule, I read the bible, I pray for people regularly, and so on. I’ve lit candles for folks at church. I think twice about doing something now. I’m making an effort because it means something to me. It always did, apparently, but now it means more than it ever has for me.

I was discussing this with a friend, and I said to him that I thought as I got older I would move further from religion, and instead, I’m moving closer to it. He nodded, explained that the samet hing had happened to him and then told me a story that involved him dealing with his own mortality as being an awakening.

I’m not dying, but I realize now that my soul was on life support. I feel like I’ve resuscitated it for now, and hopefully forever. The day I went back to church for the first time in twelve years, I feel like I rejoined the team I was already on.

It’s a decision I’ve not regretted since.

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  • http://www.chapel-perilous.net bsti

    this is really good news, and I am happy for you, even though it involves religion to find yourself. I harp on religion alot, but if it really helps people, it can’t be all bad.

  • http://seek-truth.com Chet

    Welcome back, Brother. We’ve missed you.
    :grin:

  • http://www.hauntedparsonage.us/blog/ Chuck

    I’ve been this route myself, though with some notable differences.

    To quote George Carlin, “I was raised Irish Catholic…”

    Born into, raised in, confirmed by the Catholic church. The last time my wife and I went to a Catholic service, other than a wedding, funeral or baptism, was our wedding. (20 years this summer) During the time period leading up to our wedding, we grew rather disenchanted with the Catholic church, particularly as administered in our area.

    While living in our first apartment, we found a wonderful, friendly Episcopal church down the road from us. When we moved a couple of miles away, we continued going to that church, when we went at all. When we moved into our house, about 15 miles away, we still came back for our daughter’s christening. But, form that distance, we did not make regular services often.

    We checked out the three churches in our village: Catholic, Methodist and Church of Christ. (Ironically, our house is a former parsonage for a Baptist church that is no longer here.) The Catholic church had. alas, the least friendly congregation, and the elderly priest seemed very cold. The Methodist church had a young, progressive Minister, and the people were nice. But the UCC immediately felt like “home”. We attended service there for 12 years before we finally officially joined. (I was set to do so long before, but my wife, who is kind of shy, held off) Our kids were both confirmed there, and my son currently serves no the Church’s Board of Trustees as their youth member. I’ve been on the Stewardship committee for the past 3 years, trying to increase giving by the congregation. It was during this year’s pledge campaign that a funny thing happened.

    Part of the duties of the Stewardship Committee is the get up on one of the Sundays during the pledge campaign and speak to the congregation about the need to give. Now, I don’t mind speaking in front of people, I’ve been an instructor, so it’s not hard for me to do. But this year, I started with an idea, and it started to grow. I was able to speak about what individuals had done for the church and for others in the congregation. When I was finished and walking back to my seat, several people were nodding at me, or reaching out to shake my hand. I guess the words had come out right.

    Two weeks later, I had a call from one of the Deacons. They are planning our annual “Men’s “Service”, while our pastor is out of town, the men take care of the the Sunday service. I’ve been asked to deliver a sermon. No specific topic, I can work with the day’s scripture readings, or with whatever I want to do.

    I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t nervous.

    -cjb-

  • http://www.insignificantthoughts.com Vinny

    Chuck,

    That’s a great story. You know, sometimes things come to us in the most subtle ways. For me, the reconnection was strange because once I came back, I actually felt like I never really left.

    I hope everything works out for you and you continue on your current path. I know I will!

  • http://www.chapel-perilous.net/ bsti

    this is really good news, and I am happy for you, even though it involves religion to find yourself. I harp on religion alot, but if it really helps people, it can’t be all bad.

  • http://seek-truth.com/ Chet

    Welcome back, Brother. We’ve missed you.
    :grin:

  • http://www.hauntedparsonage.us/blog/ Chuck

    I’ve been this route myself, though with some notable differences.

    To quote George Carlin, “I was raised Irish Catholic…”

    Born into, raised in, confirmed by the Catholic church. The last time my wife and I went to a Catholic service, other than a wedding, funeral or baptism, was our wedding. (20 years this summer) During the time period leading up to our wedding, we grew rather disenchanted with the Catholic church, particularly as administered in our area.

    While living in our first apartment, we found a wonderful, friendly Episcopal church down the road from us. When we moved a couple of miles away, we continued going to that church, when we went at all. When we moved into our house, about 15 miles away, we still came back for our daughter’s christening. But, form that distance, we did not make regular services often.

    We checked out the three churches in our village: Catholic, Methodist and Church of Christ. (Ironically, our house is a former parsonage for a Baptist church that is no longer here.) The Catholic church had. alas, the least friendly congregation, and the elderly priest seemed very cold. The Methodist church had a young, progressive Minister, and the people were nice. But the UCC immediately felt like “home”. We attended service there for 12 years before we finally officially joined. (I was set to do so long before, but my wife, who is kind of shy, held off) Our kids were both confirmed there, and my son currently serves no the Church’s Board of Trustees as their youth member. I’ve been on the Stewardship committee for the past 3 years, trying to increase giving by the congregation. It was during this year’s pledge campaign that a funny thing happened.

    Part of the duties of the Stewardship Committee is the get up on one of the Sundays during the pledge campaign and speak to the congregation about the need to give. Now, I don’t mind speaking in front of people, I’ve been an instructor, so it’s not hard for me to do. But this year, I started with an idea, and it started to grow. I was able to speak about what individuals had done for the church and for others in the congregation. When I was finished and walking back to my seat, several people were nodding at me, or reaching out to shake my hand. I guess the words had come out right.

    Two weeks later, I had a call from one of the Deacons. They are planning our annual “Men’s “Service”, while our pastor is out of town, the men take care of the the Sunday service. I’ve been asked to deliver a sermon. No specific topic, I can work with the day’s scripture readings, or with whatever I want to do.

    I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t nervous.

    -cjb-

  • http://www.insignificantthoughts.com/ Vinny

    Chuck,

    That’s a great story. You know, sometimes things come to us in the most subtle ways. For me, the reconnection was strange because once I came back, I actually felt like I never really left.

    I hope everything works out for you and you continue on your current path. I know I will!